After being miserable and ungrateful for things almost my whole life, I finally feel like my life is consistently great. I really think I realize now how amazing my life has always been, but how focused i was on the shit that didnt matter - the stuff that was temporary. I spent my time worrying about all of it instead of focusing on what I had. I’ve experienced so much in such little time and have so much more yet to, and I’ve never been more grateful, excited, at times fearful but eager for it all. I love my life.
In a way, I really don’t feel I need to. I’m fully aware and understanding that more bad times are certainly to come, for me and people around me. But I truly can’t think of anything that could possibly happen that would be as bad as what I’ve already gone through. As naive as that may come off as, I really do think I’ve gone through the worst parts of my life already, and although I’m certain I’ll experience grief in my future - I don’t think it will compare and I think I’m already prepared to cope with that. Until then and always, I’ll just keep it pushing!