The Dream: My mother gifted me an old, beat up RV to live in. It was filthy inside, rusted outside. I saw my aunt who wanted to see it and give me a house warming present but I told her No because it was so gross.

The Explanation: It’s because I have a very strained relationship with my family right now. They failed to step up to protect me when I was young, and then failed to show up again when I needed support as an adult (along with numerous times in between). They left me with trauma and fear and self-hatred without ever an apology or a modicum of empathy. It’s left me with the intense desire to be seen and to be loved, but at the same time an intense fear of being treated again like I was for so long. It’s left me opting out of most of life, because who would want to see such a disgusting, shoddy RV like me? And even if I do convince myself that someone might, what if they burn my RV down? Or come in and are repulsed because they don’t like what they see?

The fact that California, a state with THIRTEEN TIMES MORE PEOPLE than Mississippi, has less than half the number of traffic fatalities is mind blowing. Mississippi is just 30% of the landmass that California represents, and yet it gets more than double the amount of traffic fatalities.

Looking at the left side of the graph, the trend is easily recognizable. Drunk angry and repressed, poverty stricken republicans will drive drunk like it’s the right to bear arms. The further right you go, the more democratic the state.

I just back from vacation, stayed at a hotel that had free breakfast from 6-9. I was in that hotel for a full week, didn’t make it to breakfast once. Felt like a waste of money, waking up at noon and walking to a breakfast place nearby, but I’d rather pay for a meal than wake up early so 🤷‍♂️

How can anyone be working for ice and not think

*reject

The ability to work from home has given me innumerable benefits, but I must admit that as a very introverted guy who’s been going through some shit, and who’s go-to move during times of anxiety and depression is to distance themselves from everyone… yeah, sometimes I do miss my coworkers. A lot of them are pretty great people. Doesn’t mean I’d rather spend 3 hours a day sitting in traffic to see them, just means I low-key miss someone to bitch with.

Ah don’t worry about it. I’ve been working out since I was a kid and have fucked up so much it’s ludicrous. When nobody tells you how to work out, you end up doing shit wrong. It’s OK though, because just like life, it’s one long slow learning process.

Like, I want to compete in a body building competition, and so I diligently went about my training regimen with renewed focus and determination. Started posing practice after each workout. Couple weeks before the show, I’m at 6% bodyfat, lookin good, feeling good. Then I think “wait a tick, in all my posing, I’ve never actually seen what my back pose looks like.” So I went and set up a tripod and camera and took some shots and… woof. My back is underdeveloped as shit. Look like a body builder from the front, and a lil’ twink stick figure from the back.

So now I incorporate 3 more back exercises.

Also, I only ever started doing a regular Leg Day like 6 months ago (Just bicycled and ran before).

So, yeah. Now I’ve got a competition circled that’s further out so I can focus on back, and hopefully by then I’ll be ready. If not, oh well, just circle the next show on the ol’ calendar.

PROGRESS

I dunno man, just look at ol’ rudie guiliani and mike lindell (the pillow guy). They’re both broke as shit, ruined their lives. Now all they have left is grift

I misread the headline and thought it was a cautionary statement, explaining that elon musk was going around “woo-ing” at people, and you should (under no circumstances) “woo” back.

Catherine O’Harra, Tilda Swinton, Gary Oldman, John Malkovich, Tom Hanks

I don’t know if this counts, but when I was little I’d go to friends houses, then later in high school to my first serious girlfriends house, and I remember their families were like… loving? I loved spending time at my girlfriends house especially, hanging out with her Mom and her Dad even if my gf wasn’t there. They were so nice, and you could tell had genuine affection for their children (and to some degree, me). I miss you Mr. and Mrs. Miller!

way to go attentive little league coach!

also wtf parents?

Toxic assholes run rampant in that game. I used to love it, play it almost everyday, now I just can’t be bothered. Even while playing the unranked turbo matches you’ll find asshole flamers and toxic losers. Saps the joy right out of it.

If we have programs set up to aid people that are earning 200-250% of the federal poverty level, then what it really says is that our federal guidelines for what constitutes “living in poverty” is drastically out of date.

$15,060 per year for 1 person

$31,200 per year for a family of 4 (Shouldn’t this be 4x the individual amount anyway?)

These are just ludicrous. avg rent on a 1 bedroom is $1,500/ month, or $18,000/year

We have a poverty crisis that isn’t being realized by the data, because federal guidelines say it’s A-OK for a person to be working full time and living on the street