Presentation was a total clusterfuck - took waaaaay longer than I expected and absolutely bombed some of the questions asked - but at least it’s over and I will absolutely not dwell on what went wrong (although I have a bit of a pit in my stomach)
All I need to do now is finish up the penultimate version of this thesis for my supervisor to make final comments and then I’m submitting the damn thing tomorrow. Fuck, I’m just so done with this
e: delayed anxiety is making me feel increasingly nauseous, think I’m going to go outside for a bit of fresh air and maybe drop by the chemist
I’m not sure what your presentation was for, but as an academic who has watched many, many presentations, I guarantee yours was much better than you are imagining. I know this because a) people presenting in academic setting are way too hard on themselves, always, and b) because of a, everyome in academia is actually pretty cool about presentations.
Aw thanks. I appreciate it - it could’ve been a lot worse, but this legitimately was a “oh shit, my intro slides were still in draft phase” realisation 30 minute before the preso kind of thing, and I had exceeded my time limit not even halfway through the presentation. It’s easily the worst presentation I’ve given in my entire adult life, but I can kind of laugh at it now…
I got some softball questions that, due to total nerves, failed to completely understand at the time let alone answer coherently. But you’re right, everyone was nice enough about it, and although I’ll certainly get marks docked for rushing and going over time, I think the content was interesting enough for people to go “yeah that’ll do”. Nobody’s going to judge my worth on this thing. The thesis, otoh, might expose me as being academically anaemic - but I so don’t care because I have absolutely no interest in academia or doing any work in that sub-field!
Absolutely, it’s great to be just shedding layers of stress with this thing. I normally don’t work Fridays but booked in a site visit for work late tomorrow morning (could do with the money and replenish leave), so I have extra motivation to finish this tonight. Haven’t made any plans for the weekend beyond going to help my aunt with her never ending preparations to sell her place - I did guilt trip her into making a bit of extra food if she could, she’s a very good cook - and no plans otherwise but I have a lot of catch ups owing over the next few weeks. I’ve been on social lockdown with most friends and ready to reconnect!
Presentation was a total clusterfuck - took waaaaay longer than I expected and absolutely bombed some of the questions asked - but at least it’s over and I will absolutely not dwell on what went wrong (although I have a bit of a pit in my stomach)
All I need to do now is finish up the penultimate version of this thesis for my supervisor to make final comments and then I’m submitting the damn thing tomorrow. Fuck, I’m just so done with this
e: delayed anxiety is making me feel increasingly nauseous, think I’m going to go outside for a bit of fresh air and maybe drop by the chemist
I’m not sure what your presentation was for, but as an academic who has watched many, many presentations, I guarantee yours was much better than you are imagining. I know this because a) people presenting in academic setting are way too hard on themselves, always, and b) because of a, everyome in academia is actually pretty cool about presentations.
Aw thanks. I appreciate it - it could’ve been a lot worse, but this legitimately was a “oh shit, my intro slides were still in draft phase” realisation 30 minute before the preso kind of thing, and I had exceeded my time limit not even halfway through the presentation. It’s easily the worst presentation I’ve given in my entire adult life, but I can kind of laugh at it now…
I got some softball questions that, due to total nerves, failed to completely understand at the time let alone answer coherently. But you’re right, everyone was nice enough about it, and although I’ll certainly get marks docked for rushing and going over time, I think the content was interesting enough for people to go “yeah that’ll do”. Nobody’s going to judge my worth on this thing. The thesis, otoh, might expose me as being academically anaemic - but I so don’t care because I have absolutely no interest in academia or doing any work in that sub-field!
Hey Kitten, sorry to hear that the presentation didn’t go as planned but at least you’ve done it and presented it.
Now you can move on to your thesis.
Make sure you give yourself some self care and maybe some nice food and a movie for the weekend.
Absolutely, it’s great to be just shedding layers of stress with this thing. I normally don’t work Fridays but booked in a site visit for work late tomorrow morning (could do with the money and replenish leave), so I have extra motivation to finish this tonight. Haven’t made any plans for the weekend beyond going to help my aunt with her never ending preparations to sell her place - I did guilt trip her into making a bit of extra food if she could, she’s a very good cook - and no plans otherwise but I have a lot of catch ups owing over the next few weeks. I’ve been on social lockdown with most friends and ready to reconnect!
At least it’s done! Piece by piece this will be finished
Hey, you’re almost done though!! Not long until the umeshu. <3
That’s a big event out of the way, well done! You’re so close to getting this done, some deep breaths in the fresh air and you can do this!!
I can TASTE THE BEERS (or, in my case, the barrel-aged umeshu). Though this nausea is really doing a number on me hahahaha…
That sounds delicious!! Fingers crossed once you’re done, your body just lets out a biiiiig sigh of relief!